We have seen many attitude of the bhaktas. People can see God as a love/ lover too. Manikkavasakar was one such person, he saw his god like that. He assumed an attitude of a maiden and sang many songs withthe attitude of a lover. The alwars also composed many with that attitude.
Maha kavi Bharati was essentially a poet. He also had flashes of gnana and sang quite a few songs in that state. He saw godhood as Shakti and as Kannan. He saw Kannan as the mother, a father, a child, a teacher and the servent. Later, he saw him as his lover and started writing songs in that attitude.
At first, he says, that his mind became as restless as a lamp kept outside in the wind. He felt like a caged bird, his mind started disliking all that he used to like....
tūṇṭiṟ puḻuviṉaippōl - veḷiyē
nīṇṭa poḻutāka - eṉatu
kūṇṭukkiḷiyiṉai pōl - taṉimai
koṇṭu mikavum nontēṉ
vēṇṭum poruḷai ellām-
maṉatu veṟuttu viṭṭataṭī.........
Suddenly one day, he realises what the problem was. Someone had touched his inner mind....
iṉam viḷaṅkavillai - evaṉō
As I dreamt , one day
unknowingly someone touched my heart
I just could not
fathom the feelings....
He wonders who that could be...
yāreṉac cintai ceytēṉ
kaṇṇaṉ tiruvuruvam - aṅṅaṉē
kaṇṇiṉ muṉ niṉṟataṭī!
I kept thinking who that could be
wondering whose face it was
then I found it! A shape floats
in front of my eyes and that belongs kannan.
Then he realises that it is all kannan's doings. Whether he is sleep or awake only the thought of Kannan remains.
nāḷukku nāḷ atikamākiviṭṭatē
kūṉa ṉoruvaṉ vantin nāṇi piṉṉalaik
koṇṭai malar citaṟa niṉṟiḻuttum....
… I bore it with patience for a long time
but this keeps increasing day by day
a hunch back comes along and pulls
my hair so that the flowers scatter …..
The problem becomes acute! Listening to his stories one loses one's sleep! He starts searching for Kannan every where, even in the forest!
.....திக்குத்தெரியாத காட்டில்- உனைத்
tēṭit tēṭi iḷaittēṉē!...
...in the forest where even directions are lost
I keep searching for you in vain....
A hunter comes across this 'maiden' and longs for her. Bharati turns down the advances.
añcakkoṭumai colla vēṇṭā - piṟaṉ
kaṇṇalañ ceytuviṭṭa peṇṇē - entaṉ
kaṇṇaṟ pārttiṭavun takumō?”
oh brother, I shall fall at your feet
dont utter words that frighten me
when someone else has married a girl
can kannan even look at them?
But the hunter is insistent. Bharati swoons crying "kanna". When he awakes he sees no one!
Then he sends someone to gain the intelligence report as to what is in Kannan's mind.....
kaṇṭu vara vēṇumaṭi taṅkamē taṅkam
“oh dear please find out what is in the mind of kannan”
“nēra muḻuvatilumap pāvi taṉṉaiyē - uḷḷam
niṉaittu maṟukutaṭi taṅkamē taṅkam
tīra oru coliṉṟu kēṭṭu vantiṭṭāl - piṉpu
teyvam irukkutaṭi taṅkamē taṅkam"
“oh dear, through out the day
the mind keeps pining for him
if you can ascertain what he really thinks
then I shall leave it to God to take care”
Thus in vexation he almost gives up hopes!
When a person pines like this, can he forget the face of Kannan? But even that happens! Now he blames himself...
peṇkaḷiṉiṭattilitu pōlē - oru
pētaiyai muṉpukaṇṭa tuṇṭō?”
The eyes committed sin and hence
Dear kannan's face was forgotten!
Have you ever seen such a dunce
Among the women of this world?
Well loves knows no rhymes or reasons! Bharati brings in full the essence of such attitude. Read the original passages for the full story!